Tera Zikr

Ek nazm aisi likhu
Jisme tera zikr ho
Ye baat sirf tere mere
Darmiyan ho

Us me zikr karu
Tere labon pe aai
Har baat ka,
Tere zehan me aaye
Har khayal ka

Teri aankhon se padhu
Jo tham kar tera hath
Phir muskura kar keh dun
Kya kya likhu batao na is baar?

Keh do ki is nazm me
Ho mera hi zikr har baar
Maine to jee li wo shaam
Tumhari nazron se phir ek baar

Jaane do kuch vaakya
rehne do adhure 
Ye baat, ye shaam
Rehne do tere mere hi darmiya

Ek nazm aisi likhu
Jisme tera zikr ho
Tere khayalon ki kalam ho
Aur Yaadon se bhare panne ho.. 

Sushmita......

phir yunhi....

बादलों में छिपी तस्वीर को

खोजती हूँ मैं

उस नारंगी आसमान में

खो जाती हूँ मैं

छप छप की बूंदों से

पेट भरती हरी- हरी पत्तियां

मिट्टी की सोन्दी सोन्दी महक

एहसास लिए फिर

सोचती हूँ मैं ,,

यूँ खुदा भी अपनी कुदरत पर

इतना इतराता होगा ......

जाने कैसे कैसे ख़याल

अपने जेहन में लाता होगा?

कर गरूर तू अपनी कुदरत पर
है सच तो यही

ढूंढ़ लेती हूँ मैं

सौ बहाने जीने को

ज़रा थम जा , ऐ हवा
मेरी सोच ने ले ली है करवट 

मेरा एहसास लिए

तू उसकी ओर जाना

कह देना-

हर शाम होती है मुलाक़ात
तेरे नाम से , तेरे ख्याल से ,,
अब तो लगता है
ये हवा भी करती है साज़िश

हर शाम तू अपने ख्याल में
लेना मेरा नाम
बन कर तेरे चेहरे की मुस्कान
पहुँच जाउंगी तेरे पास ....... 

Sushmita...

Badalon me chupi tasveer ko

khojti hun main

us naarangi aasman me

kho jati hun main

chhap chhap ki boondon se

pet bharti hari-hari pattiyan

mitti ki sondi sondi mehak

ehsaas liye phir

sochti hun main....

yun Khuda bhi apni kudrat pr

itna itraata hoga

jaane kaise kaise khayal

apne jehan me laata hoga

kar garoor tu apni kudrat pr

hai sach to yahi

dhundh leti hun main 

sou bahaane jeene ko

zara tham ja ae hawa..

meri soch ne le li hai karwatein

mera ehsaas kiye

tu uski aurr jana

keh dena-

har shaam hoti hai mulaqat

tere naam se, tere khayal se

ab to lagta hai

ye hawa bhi karti hai saazish

har shaam tu apne khayal me

lena mera naam

ban kar tere chehre hi muskaan

pahunch jaungi tere paas......

Sushmita...

kuch yunhi....

      1:07am , finally apni awaaz record kar ke jab khudh sunne lagi tabhi ek khayal aaya ki poore 3 mahine baad shayad meri awaaz mere listners sun payenge. kaafi time se sab puch rahe hai new RADIO kab launch ho raha hai?? aisa hi khayal chal raha tha jehan me ki 1:22am per mujhe ek kissa yaad aaya..........

       Jab pehli baar maine Ghazal night special show live on- air kiya , show se kuch der pehle tak kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki Ghazals to mein sab ko suna dungi per Ghazals ke sath bolungi kya??? bahut socha, phir  khurafaati dimag kaam karne laga aur socha kyu na ek kahaani ya ek pal Ghazal ke sath on-air ki jaaye... Ab wo kahaani / pal kya hoga? kaisa hoga?? ab is uljhan me ulajh gayi... Phir mujhe ek cheej pe behadh pyaar aaya,,,,  ab aap soch rahe honge ...................."Aisa kya hoga"?? to jawaab me KUCH BAATEIN.. 

       

      Wo kehte hai na,, kuch bhi likha hua lekh ya notes hamesha life me kahin na kahin kaam aa hi jaate hai aur mere sath bhi yahi hua... Mera blog, yunhi ek din maine apni life ka ek chota sa pal yaha likha tha . To bas, us 30mins. me mujhe decide karna tha ki kahaani aakhir hogi kya?? kaise kahaani ki shuruwaat hogi aur kahaani ka agla mod kya hoga? aaj tak jitni bhi movies dekhi, real or scripted story padhi/ dekhi un sab ko ek jagah ikattha karna tha aur ek nayi kahaani banani thi..... wo show mera Bhagwaan bharose tha sach.....

        Hahahahha,,,, mein nervous aur sach batau to usse pehle kabhi maine Ghazals suni bhi nahi thi. Bt show karna tha isliye 2 din se sirf aur sirf Ghazals hi suni... Ab aap soch rahe honge ki ye baat kahan se kahan ghum gayi... To mein bata dun,,, baat bilkul sahi direction me jaa rahi hai... wo aise, ki us din jo kahaani maine on-air ki wo adhoori reh gayi thi... Mujhe pata hi nahi chala one and a half  hour kaise beet gaya... mujhe baar baar kaha ja raha tha ki mein apni awaaz me ek song on-air karu... aur us din maine 1 song ke 4 paragraph story ke alag alag mod pe apni awaaz me on-air kiye... "Ye Sama, Sama Hai Ye Pyaar Ka.. Kisi Ke Intazaar Ka , Dil Na Chura Le Kahin Mera Mausam Bahaar ka..............."

         Jo bhi tha , Jaisa bhi show tha maine njoy kia... waise sach batau to Ghazal Night show me 3 alag alag diff. concept ko ek sath mila kar ek show bana kar rakhna thoda mushkil kaam tha, bt maine try zarur kiya... aur mujhe achcha lagta hai... maine diff. diff. concept ke shows kiye.... Us show me to kisi ne mujhse ye bhi pucha tha ki "Sushmita, kya ye aapki story hai" ??????

Sushmita.....

lamhey...

  aaj bhi wo adhoore lekh poore nhi kar paai... ya yun kahu ki mein samay nahi de pati? 

     Kitni ajeeb baat hai na..........  jo bhi kuch mein likhti hun sochti hun , ye jaanti tak nahi ki isko koi padhta bhi hoga ya isko likhne se kya hoga .. bas likh deti hun kyunki mera mann kehta hai.... Ek time aisa tha jab Maine har jagah apne aapko akela paaya, pata nahi kyu? Hazaaron ki bheedh bhi mujhe akela kar jati ... aur ho bhi kyu na? Mera sapna , mera khwaab , sab mere hi rahe kisi se isko share karne ki koshish bhi nahi ki.. Lagta tha shayad saamne wala mujhe pagal ya ajeeb ladki na kahey .... haha ... arreeyy ab hun to insaan hi saamne waley ki soch tak pahunchne ki koshish kabhi nahi ki isliye Hazaaron ki bheedh sirf bheedh hi lagi koi bhi friend ya koi bhi family member wo jagah le hi nahi paaya..... 

     Shayad ab mein ye kabhi nahi keh sakti .... kyunki Hazaaron ki bheedh ki zarurat mujhe nahi.. shayad mujhe sirf ek wahi khawab ki talaash thi jo sirf mere liye hi ek haqeeqat ban jaye .... :)  Zindagi bahut hi khubsurat ehsaas hai sach... achchi buri sab situation aapko kuch seekh de kar jaati hai.. Doston se door ek nayi zindagi sochna bhi mushkil lagta hai per baad me sab achcha lagta hai, shayad ishwar ne humare liye kuch na kuch achcha socha hi hota hai... aur agar aise me saath ho kisi apne ka to kuch bhi mushkil nahi.... Har koi muskurana chahta hai ,, chahey wo doston se sath ho ya family member ke sath.... Muskurana aa jata hai...

       Shayad mere liye best part yahi raha... mujhe mauka mila apne aapko apno ko kareeb se jaan'ne ka , ek special duniya ko jaan'ne ka... aur mere liye best best best pal yahi raha....Ye bhi nahi janti ki har buri situation ko face karne ki himmat mujhme kaise aa jati hai... shayad apno ka pyaar ya ek smile.. koi gham nahi kabhi kisi baat ka ab... kyunki maine apne khwaab ko haqeeqat bante jiya hai... aur zindagi ne itna khubsurat mod liya ki jahan bhi chalu waha sirf ek special ehsaas hai... ek special ehsaas.... jise me shabdon me bayaan kabhi nahi kar paungi... yahi kahungi meri zindagi aur us special ehsaas se mujhe bahut pyaar hai...  meri zindagi ne mujhe itna pyaara gift dia ,, mein hamesha us ehsaas ki respect karti hun aur karti karungi.... :)

Sushmita.....

Aise Na Jaao- (2)

फलक की गोद में छुप-छुप  यूँ चाँद झाँक रहा है

देखो तो ज़रा वो मन ही मन धीमे से मुस्कुरा रहा है
कुछ सर्द है, मदहोश है 

मेरे ख्याल में आज भी वही दिन है  

"falak ki god me chup-chup yun chand jhaank raha hai

dekho to zara , wo mann hi mann dheeme se muskura raha hai

kuch sard hai, madhosh hai

mere khayal me aaj bhi wahi din hai" 

   Haan agar is waqt mere paas ek piano hota to mein zarur play karti.... jab bhi mein udaas hoti hun to instrumental music sunti hun....  mujhe sab se zyada instrumental music isliye pasand hai kyunki isko sunte time mera khud ka apna khayal sath hota hai... jo mein soch rahi hun wo dhun ke sath soch sakti hun... Bas kuch time akele rehna chahti hun :'(

      Aaj yaad aata hai apna pehla blog post .. nahi janti thi kya likhna hai, kaise likhna hai, Blog me kya likha jata hai..... ? Bas likh dia... yaad aata hai "AISE NA JAAO" 

      << http://www.sushmita-kuchbaatein.blogspot.in/2009/11/aise-na-jaao_19.html>>

     aakhiri line ko phir aage badhaate huey , mein phir se us jagah aa gayi jahan se maine shuruwaat ki thi..... 

"uljhi hui apne hi khayalon me waha se chalne lagi, AUR HAMESHA KI TARHA PHIR KUCH ADHURA ADHURA REH GYA..
mann kehta reh gaya AISE NA JAAO........ " 

       mein wapas aa to gayi thi us din per adhurey alfaaz, adhurey pal hamesha mujhe wahi le jate hai.. us din bhi mann nahi kiya tha wapas aane ka ... per kaafi waqt hone ki wajah se aana padha... Kyu aisa nahi hota ki samay ko rok sakey. lamhey to aankhon me basa kar apne paas hamesha ke liye rakh lete hai per phir se jeena chahe to ...... waqt ijaazat nahi deta.... badi berukhi si malum padhti hai....

       jab bhi do pal khush hoti hun to aansu baha aati hun, dil kehta hai wo lamha apne sath hi mujhe baha le jaye. phir khamosh... umeed to har koi karta hi hai... jab bhi jaan'na chahu apne dil ko to aankhein band kar leti hun... aur pahunch jati hun ek achche khayal me... ek sukoon hai sach..... ye to mein zaahir kar nahi sakti, per sach hai.. keh to sakti hun.. 

      khamosh hun aaj, phir se wahi jana chahti hun,, is baar rangey huey panno ko palatna nahi chahti,, balki korey panne rangna chahti hun... jahan waqt, tufaani hawa, tej lehrein sab mere sath ho aur sath hi mera sukoon bhi... 

     aaj mein khudh se apni khamoshi se door hona chahti hun,, jisse aane wali subha in sabhi ke sath mujhe wahi sukoon wapas lauta de.....aaj bas isi umeed ke sath jaa rahi hun .... abhi phir se wahi awaaz sunai di "AISE NA JAAO" .. mera mann phir se wahi in sab ke beech reh gya...

Sushmita.....

ek sawal - 07 , Jan

ek sawal.....

kal maine RJ_Sushmita ne sabhi se ek sawal pucha ... sawal ek photo me chhupa tha. kisi ne ek movie ka naam bataya , kisi ne sher likh dia , kisi ne nazm me badal dia... Haan maine hi kaha tha , is pic. ko dekh kar jo bhi khayal jehan me aaye , likh dein.

aankhon me kho jaye aankhein

boley haath se haath,,

aankhon me kho jaye aankhein

boley haath se haath,,

chup tum raho,chup hum rahe

khamoshi ko khamoshi se

zindagi ko zindagi se baat karne do...

waah ,, bahut hi pyaara song hai,, har ek song ke lyrics mujhe tab samjh aate hai jab mein kaam se free ho kar shaanti me song sunti hun.... Jaante hai? hum jo kuch bhi kabhi bhi likhte hai , wo sab khayal kaha se aate hai?? apne aas paas se... apne aas paas ki cheejo se.. aise hi ye photo bahut kuch kehti hai....  

kabhi- kabhi humari planning fail ho jati hai... kyunki shayad hum apne aap se ya us plan se kuch zyada hi umeed laga kar baith jate hai....

dekh rahe hai is photo ko ?... door door tak dekhey.... agar aap kahey ye bahut hi shaant jagah hai to mein kahungi bilkul nahi... Haan yaha logo ki bheed dikhai nahi de rahi per wo sab aapke deemag me to hai.. kuch baatein koi khayal , logo ki bheed , apno ka zikr , problms n all... Agar aap akele ja kar yaha baith jaye to bhi ye sab aapke sath chalenge , wo aapke mann me jo hai..... Haan agar aap kisi ke bhi baare me na sochey to phir ye jagah wahi hai jo dikh rahi hai..... Bahut hi pyaari... sochey jisne ye photo click ki usko ye jagah kitni pasand aai hogi.... ho sakta tha ye jagah itni khubsurat na lagti agar ye pedh aur ye jhoola nahi hota..... 

Har cheej ki apni importance hoti hai....

agar mein us jagah per hoti to....... kaafi samay tak akeli baithi rehti,, apne achche burey palon ko yaad karti aur ghar laut'te waqt yaha se ek smile le kar jati .....

ghar ko wapas laut rahe hai

kadmo ke nishaan lehron me kho kar

yaadon ko chhod kar ja rhe hain

nayi yaadon ko bun'ne

gar sach me muskura chahe

to phir se nayi shuruwat karey

sath wahi safar ho bas 

yaadein nayi ho.....

Sushmita.....

:) ek aur khwaaish...

     jab bhi main likhna start karti hun to samajh hi nahi aata "kya likhu" .. apni mann ki baat likhey huey kaafi time ho gaya . Aksar kuch baaton ko poetry (khayal) ya ek pal ka roop de deti hun per bahut si baatein adhoori reh hi jati hai... aaj mein phir se Sushmita ban kar RJ_Sushmita ki life discuss karna chahti hun ...

    sab se pehle to kaafi achcha lag raha hai apne Blog me wapas aa kar. RJ_Sushmita aur Sushmita me fark to hai hi.. is time clock me 1:00am ho rahe hai aur mein ek song kaafi der se sun rahi hun :) ,, " jaadu hai tera hi jaadu, jo mere dil pe chhane laga" .. shayad hi itne songs maine roz suney honge jitna RJ banne ke baad sune.. haha.. bt aaj ,, aaj achaanak hi ye song meri jubaan pe aa gya aur achcha bhi lag raha hai :)

  Mera sapna ek Best RJ banna .... jiske liye mein din raat bas kuch na kuch naya sochti rehti hun,, new idea aur mein kab soti hun kab jaagti hun kuch pata nhi..... per 1 saal aur kuch mahine pehle ki baat karey to mein roz apne blog mein bahut si baatein likhti thi... aaj bhi thand me wahi mere haathon ka thanda ho jana  aur phir blog likhte likhte haathon ko ragadna..... achcha lag raha hai apni duniya me wapas aa kar...

    AahaaAn to janaab mein hun wahi naughty si,, nanhi si chulbuli si pyaari si bhi :D Sushmita jo apni duniya me rehna zyada pasand karti hai... pata hai kya mann kar raha hai ???,,,, ek hottttt melt chocolate khaane ka wo bhi is time... uuuummmm yumm yuummm... hahahhaa

    Pata hai? mera bada mann kar raha hai ke mein 5-6 din baahar ghumne jaau , fb se door , frnds ke sath ghumne aur bahut saari pix click karu.... aur train me safar ,, hum sab frnds mil kar train me itna shor karey... shor se yaad aaya ke mera bada mann hai ek baar me kisi aisi jagah jaau jaha sirf hariyaali ho aur bahut shaaanti aur me apni baahein faila kar ,, aasman ki aurr dekh kar aankhein band kar ke smile karu.....yunhi kuch der rahu aur mehsoos karu wo lamha wo place aur jb aankhein kholu to sab tension sab prblm se door ho jau.... aur ghanton tak us jagah baithi rahu... ek khaali bench aur aas paas hariyaali.... jameen pe ghaans aur haath me ek notepad aur ek pen.... mein sketching karu aur kuch likhu.... jo bhi likhu uske sath ek drawing bhi... :)

      ek chota sa khwaab ,,, jaane kab poora hoga ........ bt sach me mein aisa chahti hun .. ek lonely place pe jaau jo bahut hi pyaari si jagah ho....

 

Sushmita.....